Another hole left in my heart

April 2011 - January 2021

It is with a very heavy heart that we said goodbye to our beautiful boy Buster Black Magic. He came to us in 2014 as a rescue and in a pretty poor state.  Instead of being taken to the groomers they had tried trimming his beautiful coat with scissors.  His beautiful ears were so matted that he looked like Princess Leia and had ulcers which were hidden underneath all that fur were so bad that he had to be treated with antibiotics in the hope that we could save his ears from amputation.

Despite all that he rallied and became the most beautiful boy and the most gentle soul.  He was my little shadow and my best friend. 

We had long known that his health was taking a down turn.  Cavaliers are known for developing heart conditions as they get older and Buster already had a grade 3 mummer when he came to us nearly seven years ago.   Over the last few years he had been put on medication and with each passing year that medication had to be increased or changed.  Just before Christmas he had started to pave the pathway in letting us know that his time was near but he still enjoyed a short walk and big cuddles especially on a Sunday morning. 

It was whilst I was at work that I call from D to say that Buster had fainted in the kitchen and taken a few minutes to come too, frightening the life out of D.  He was calling to let me know that he was taking him to an emergency appointment at the vets and would give me a call when he knew what was happening.  As we have so  many times with Mr B over the past year we ended the call with 'what ever decision you need to make you know you have my full support'.  On this particular occasion again he rallied and returned home but on this occasion the vet had stipulated going out for walks was no longer an option and that we were now on borrowed time and that he would not be with us much longer and to prepare ourselves that just like Monty he may just go at anytime. 

Over the weekend he showed us he still  had a zest for life but by the Sunday evening his breathing had changed and was much more laboured than it had been previously.  Neither of us got much sleep that night and by the Monday morning D had made the decision that it was time to call the vets. 

Due to Covid restrictions D was met at the car and Buster taken into the practice for an examination by his vet Dr Nigel.  When D was called in for his consultation he said B was very chilled and relaxed.  They talked over what was best for Buster and sadly D had to make the decision that it was time for Buster to go and find Monty over Rainbow Bridge. D said the vets were fantastic they have been dealing with us as a family for over 10 years and know all the boys inside and out and D said the nurses were just as upset as he was.  We collected his ashes on Friday.  He is now back home sat alongside  Monty.  No longer with us in body but very much still with us in spirit.    

As with all our boys they have all come with their own little stories and have been much loved and a huge part of our family.  Saying goodbye to a pet is one of the hardest decisions  I think you ever have to make in life and it never gets any easier that's for sure. Selfishly I would of like him to be with us forever but  in the end they rely on us to make the big decisions for them and it has to be the right one for them and not what is best for us. 

So fly high my beautiful boy and enjoy meeting up with Monty and chasing dreams. 

Mx